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Wander to nowhereA ghostly walk on the autumnal pavement
Even my own shadow is gleaming more
Than the empty shell of my body.
As I keep wandering, on this endless pit
Picky starving crows are looking down on me
The leftovers of my thoughts order me to die out.
This path of glory I've kept away from, it might be gone.
My dignity and pride, where have you fled?
I'm searching for the graveyard of redemption
Where my promises are all buried
Shot down by my deceit's gun.
Will you ever forgive me?
As I'm standing there, the icy silence blows ;
As time goes by, the ruthless mutism of yours
Reckons that time for forgiveness hasn't come yet.
History of Health Issues
May 6, 2021 2003 – Illness was misdiagnosed as migraines, resulted in an MRI revealing cervical spinal fractures. 2004 – First neck fusion. 2005 – Auto-accident – misdiagnosed as whiplash. (This is where the journey starts to get messy.) 2008 – Diagnosed with fibroids and pre-cancer cells identified as HPV. Doctors talked about hysterectomy—performed conization of HPV cells. After the surgery, I was tested every six months for two years - it inspired the menses series of paintings. 2009-2012 – My health began to deteriorate resulted in constant crying, speaking difficulties, struggles with comprehension, seizure-like events, short-term memory loss, and windows of clarity. When I was clear-headed, I crammed as much of my “normal” self into those moments as possible. 2012 – Diagnosed with a lesion at the corpus callosum. (Note: In 2016/2017, I spoke with a different neurologist than the person who initially diagnosed the condition, she explained that the body had
Update: New Years Eve 2020
Cheers to one and all. Please follow me into the future @ https://www.deviantart.com/landoflillith Stay inspired.
Proof that Baby Steps are Progress
Hi, All. I hope everyone is well and inspired in these epic times. If you are interested in staying with me, please follow me at my new page: www.deviantart.com/landoflillith All new work will be posted on that page. What's been going on with me: Over the last few years, I have been working with a team of exceptional doctors, nurses, et al. On October 19th, I had my second cervical fusion. Currently, I am restricted to a collar until Dec. 2. From the time the collar comes off, I will be starting physical therapy to regain muscle tone and strength that has been lost over the last decade. Thus far, a significant reduction in pain to some degree has been achieved, but my mobility and stamina will take a while longer to regain. Continuing with the good vibes and progress: I graduated from online college with a BBA, starting the master's program mid-March 2021, and FINALLY got hooked up with Art Storefronts to produce a professional website. Occasionally, I will post updates here
A Change of Pace and Scenery
Hello, My Lovely and Gentles, Ladybug and Germs, Nymphs and Neophytes.
Change is coming.
Find me at my new deviant page: LandofLillith.
So, I have been gone gone gone like a little feather in a high wind.
Here is a brief gist of the last few years:
I have been working with doctors to get my pain under control, Neurocore to help with the brain-wiring snafu, and started and nearly completed a BBA (graduation is at the end of September of this year.)
Upcoming changes:
This little page will be an homage to yesteryear and the wild ride it took to get us all into the future.
I have been accepted into the master's program, which I will start
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thank for the feature ^^